Melancholy

Particularly today, for the whole day, I felt blue without any specific reason. I went outside to a shopping mall but I had to go back due to sudden dizziness after lunch. I had a nap, but still I felt blue. I wish I could have the guts to do youtube as...

Sex work is A WORK

Have my laptop, two phones and wallets nearby me sitting on the couch for 3hrs this morning doing business. I am recovering quickly (I believe) from my mind sickness and can concentrate on documenting things now. Plus I am doing 1 meal a day fast so I have more time...

Something about me

Writing two blog posts in a row is not easy but I’d like to spread about what I have in mind. The fortuneteller, I was told that I have a mental, borderline personality disorder. BPD It’s not really commonly known in Korea I think, so I was surprised that...

Typhoon

This morning weathercast announced the hurricane is coming up from Philippine to the Korean peninsula steadily next week. Now whole days rain this week and typhoon will be smashing according to the radar. For a tour, I prepare lots of details. I go to many beauty...

Last resort

I couldn’t be happier these days. Finally I visited and have stayed at my parents’ suburban house as a “last resort” Literally as the last resort. I intentionally avoided contact them not to mention never visited. As a kind of punishment? Yes,...

Positive energy

This morning I feel good after the shower, with a piece of lovely french music. I’ve been worried a lot and hard to cope with and wanna ask help although I do not know what kind of help..ultimately I should go on my life, in my own way. Yesterday I have called...

Psychiatric clinic

Today been to see the psychiatrist because I think it’s really time to go. Hard to cope with my emotions every morning when I wake up. Hard to move my body. I feel really anxious in the morning time. I hate to open the curtain, hate to see the strong sunshine. I...

Fasting and Diet

I have been intermittent fasting since this week. Just started. First I am making my body get used to this fasting. Finally I ate a meal after 20hrs since previous one. Okay I am doing well on this so far. When I was in NYC, this city made me hectic busy, really had...

Health Insurance

Yesterday I’ve done government health insurance by a few phone calls. Everyone was so assisted. Actually, it renewed it cause I have been overseas for a while. I was allowed to be back and get a beneficiary. After made it, I’ve been to the women’s...

Loneliness

I think I’m lonely deeply. I feel my heart’s getting sophocating and hard to breathe deeply. But I try to breathe slow and deeply. I don’t know how should I handle my life right now. I think I miss people. It’s been so long since I met...