Vertigo

Since the 2nd or 3rd of December suddenly I’ve got severe dizziness. Some of the days so far I almost lie down on the bed the whole day. Today I feel better. And I believe and have to ūüôā cause I wanna live my life fully. Currently taking medication for that and...

Too difficult world to live for pure soul..

This week I have often sunk into melancholy..not like a sorrow but just when I catch myself thinking of  unbelievable news from my country.  A young BEAUTIFUL lady I’ve ever seen in my life..was found dead in her house.  At first it just made me freeze and I  couldn’t...

Thunderstormy night

Almost every night between 8~11pm no exception thunderstorms in Bangkok, literally with white lights as if like fireworks followed by heavy rain. So strong rain sound I’ve ever heard in my life. Let me clarify first, I like Thailand I like Bangkok perhaps I...

Melancholy

Particularly today, for the whole day, I felt blue without any specific reason. I went outside to a shopping mall but I had to go back due to sudden dizziness after lunch. I had a nap, but still I felt blue. I wish I could have the guts to do youtube as...

Sex work is A WORK

Have my laptop, two phones and wallets nearby me sitting on the couch for 3hrs this morning doing business. I am recovering quickly (I believe) from my mind sickness and can concentrate on documenting things now. Plus I am doing 1 meal a day fast so I have more time...

Something about me

Writing two blog posts in a row is not easy but I’d like to spread about what I have in mind. The fortuneteller, I was told that I have a mental, borderline personality disorder. BPD It’s not really commonly known in Korea I think, so I was surprised that...

Typhoon

This morning weathercast announced the hurricane is coming up from Philippine to the Korean peninsula steadily next week. Now whole days rain this week and typhoon will be smashing according to the radar. For a tour, I prepare lots of details. I go to many beauty...

Last resort

I couldn’t be happier these days. Finally I visited and have stayed at my parents’ suburban house as a “last resort” Literally as the last resort. I intentionally avoided contact them not to mention never visited. As a kind of punishment? Yes,...

Positive energy

This morning I feel good after the shower, with a piece of lovely french music. I’ve been worried a lot and hard to cope with and wanna ask help although I do not know what kind of help..ultimately I should go on my life, in my own way. Yesterday I have called...

Psychiatric clinic

Today been to see the psychiatrist¬†because I think it’s really time to go. Hard to cope with my emotions every morning when I wake up. Hard to move my body. I feel really anxious in the morning time. I hate to open the curtain, hate to see the strong sunshine. I...